King of Pop Dies

Yeah, quite a shocker huh?

He died of Cardiac Arrest at the UCLA Medical Center, 25 June 2009.

And his so called 50 last concerts to make his retirement in this year's end shall never came true....

RIP, Michael Jackson.

http://www.michaeljackson.com/

Empty

I don't know why am i writing this, I am suddenly feeling empty, like suddenly losing my focus on everthing, I am like having no mood to do anything at all.

I became forgetful, feeling restless, yet always only able to sleep after 3am.

I really need to adjust my bio clock.

Is it because I was bogged down by my college matters? Why can't I just calm down?

I don't even know what the heck am i typing right now.

I felt like, I wasn't there for the entire world. At one side, I love be left alone, but yet I found out that I was the outcast in my class. I tried to mix with the people but it failed, so I just stop, stop trying to appeal to other people.

Nobody cares about me, and that, perhaps is a relieve.

It's like, I suddenly felt I didn't have a purpose for my existence.

I never ignored people. I swear, but i was constantly being ignored, and that wasn't cool at all.

Alright, gotta bath, then read my borrowed book from the college library and then go to sleep. I got heaps of crap have to clean up.


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I'm finally out of the internship!

Yes and now finally I'm year two.

Year two of advance diploma is more hectic that I have imagined. Thinking that I have 3 projects stuffed down my throat on merely the second week in the semester really chills my spine.

But I am really burning out. I haven't gone back to JB to see my parents since Feb and I am really tired for all the packed appointments and so on. Life after the loss of my love life has gone more busier than I thought.

My Samsung D900i handphone is really getting old. Why, how time flies! I bought in year 2007 and it served me well.

Wait a minute, I have so many things to buy. I need to get a net book by the time I arrive in London on next year's June, I need a vacuum cleaner because my room is such a mess, I need at least a new external hard disk drive, and now, a new hand phone.

Maybe I'll just do what I usually do when it comes to new gadgets... wait it out.

Life is pretty normal after I break up with my girlfriend. I can finally save some money instead of throwing it away on her. I can now focus on doing more part time jobs to supplement my cause, and yes, the new school bill of RM1770 is definately killing me.