I'm finally single again~

Yes, after a year of dragging, we broke up again....

I really don't know how to say, it wasn't as painful as the first time, maybe that means I also do not love her anymore?

Do I not love her?

Those happy, sad, and emotional events were imprinted inside my mind forever.

How we met each other, how we used to dream about our future, her coking, we bought groceries together.... we made love to each other... it all seemed yesterday.... the memories were still fresh.

So what she was 25 years my senior, who gives the shit?

She just can't get over that barrier, and it's good that we split, rather than have to fight over our age gap.

She doesn't love me anymore.... so all those reconcilements made last year.... wasn't that strong anyway...

it's like a lightbulb burns out, you tried to patch back the burnt filaments, it glows far brighter than it old self, but snaps after a short while...

And our relationship glows dimmer and dimmer..... until it dies out.

I don't understand, how can ex-couples become friends? How can you mix libido with friendship..... it's awkward, and painful for the men, and it's super selfish.

I don't know whether I should hate her, or just cling on to my passion and continue to wait..... is it worth the wait?

No it's not, but it is so hard to put down... man everything in this universe can be explained scientifically, except religion and love relationships.

Totally no logic at all.

I don't think I can love another woman like I loved my ex.... do I still have the strength to love another person? I am tired, very very tired.

Every night I would just cling onto my pillow and blanket and tried to sleep. It was hard, so I have no choice but to read books, surf the net until fatigue took over my body.

Everyday I would just work, work my ass off to tranquilize my senses. Only work that I can find my life useful. Yeah it was only an internship at a newspaper office, but it's better than goofing off around.

I feel like a living corpse.

My senses are numb. I am forgetting how to love a person. I am getting cruel... I am alone.

Dragging wasn't an answer, I know. Everybody knows. But that's not the answer I wanted.... somehow I am waiting for the answer to change, but maybe that's meaningless by now.

After 5 years, I am back to the 1st stage, I am going to be alone again.

Just let the nature take its place....

The Brilliant Green - Forever to me ~終わりなき悲しみ~

Infamous quotes

Some of them just blasted through my head, some of them taken from my friends... enjoy.

Unless God give you more than one dick, stay faithful with one woman.

If you can repay all your debts to a loanshark, you don't have to borrow from them in the first place.

An asshole is a person who doesn't even fight for himself.

Look thrice before you leap.

Rules are for breaking.

The sole purpose for humans is to, well, reproduce.

We live to eat to live.

I'm selling lipstick~

I'm selling lipstick, each at only RM20!

The lipstick's brands are MAC, Lancome, Calvin Klein and Clinique!

The lip gloss is MAC one..... each also at RM20! Only 4 left!

I also sell lip ice, the brand is Pond's, and they are only RM8 each!!!!

Will post the pic soon~