Yeah, quite a shocker huh?
He died of Cardiac Arrest at the UCLA Medical Center, 25 June 2009.
And his so called 50 last concerts to make his retirement in this year's end shall never came true....
RIP, Michael Jackson.
http://www.michaeljackson.com/
Friday, June 26, 2009
Friday, June 12, 2009
Empty
I don't know why am i writing this, I am suddenly feeling empty, like suddenly losing my focus on everthing, I am like having no mood to do anything at all.
I became forgetful, feeling restless, yet always only able to sleep after 3am.
I really need to adjust my bio clock.
Is it because I was bogged down by my college matters? Why can't I just calm down?
I don't even know what the heck am i typing right now.
I felt like, I wasn't there for the entire world. At one side, I love be left alone, but yet I found out that I was the outcast in my class. I tried to mix with the people but it failed, so I just stop, stop trying to appeal to other people.
Nobody cares about me, and that, perhaps is a relieve.
It's like, I suddenly felt I didn't have a purpose for my existence.
I never ignored people. I swear, but i was constantly being ignored, and that wasn't cool at all.
Alright, gotta bath, then read my borrowed book from the college library and then go to sleep. I got heaps of crap have to clean up.
* * *
I became forgetful, feeling restless, yet always only able to sleep after 3am.
I really need to adjust my bio clock.
Is it because I was bogged down by my college matters? Why can't I just calm down?
I don't even know what the heck am i typing right now.
I felt like, I wasn't there for the entire world. At one side, I love be left alone, but yet I found out that I was the outcast in my class. I tried to mix with the people but it failed, so I just stop, stop trying to appeal to other people.
Nobody cares about me, and that, perhaps is a relieve.
It's like, I suddenly felt I didn't have a purpose for my existence.
I never ignored people. I swear, but i was constantly being ignored, and that wasn't cool at all.
Alright, gotta bath, then read my borrowed book from the college library and then go to sleep. I got heaps of crap have to clean up.
* * *
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
I'm finally out of the internship!
Yes and now finally I'm year two.
Year two of advance diploma is more hectic that I have imagined. Thinking that I have 3 projects stuffed down my throat on merely the second week in the semester really chills my spine.
But I am really burning out. I haven't gone back to JB to see my parents since Feb and I am really tired for all the packed appointments and so on. Life after the loss of my love life has gone more busier than I thought.
My Samsung D900i handphone is really getting old. Why, how time flies! I bought in year 2007 and it served me well.
Wait a minute, I have so many things to buy. I need to get a net book by the time I arrive in London on next year's June, I need a vacuum cleaner because my room is such a mess, I need at least a new external hard disk drive, and now, a new hand phone.
Maybe I'll just do what I usually do when it comes to new gadgets... wait it out.
Life is pretty normal after I break up with my girlfriend. I can finally save some money instead of throwing it away on her. I can now focus on doing more part time jobs to supplement my cause, and yes, the new school bill of RM1770 is definately killing me.
Year two of advance diploma is more hectic that I have imagined. Thinking that I have 3 projects stuffed down my throat on merely the second week in the semester really chills my spine.
But I am really burning out. I haven't gone back to JB to see my parents since Feb and I am really tired for all the packed appointments and so on. Life after the loss of my love life has gone more busier than I thought.
My Samsung D900i handphone is really getting old. Why, how time flies! I bought in year 2007 and it served me well.
Wait a minute, I have so many things to buy. I need to get a net book by the time I arrive in London on next year's June, I need a vacuum cleaner because my room is such a mess, I need at least a new external hard disk drive, and now, a new hand phone.
Maybe I'll just do what I usually do when it comes to new gadgets... wait it out.
Life is pretty normal after I break up with my girlfriend. I can finally save some money instead of throwing it away on her. I can now focus on doing more part time jobs to supplement my cause, and yes, the new school bill of RM1770 is definately killing me.
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
I can't surf wikipedia for some fucking reason!
I just can't do it! I'm using p1wimax and this is the third day i can't access it!
Thursday, May 7, 2009
Democracy is really dead, wear or not wear black clothes?
Well for me I will wear it for a day, you want to wear it or not, that's up to you.
I wear because, I like it, not because of some dude from BERSIH asked me to.
And if I am ever caught by the police just by wearing A BLACK T-SHIRT, hell, tough shit then.
You do not, will not, and shall not win the Perak people's hearts with cheap tricks such as hijacking the entire Dewan Negeri.
I mean, why is BN afraid of by-elections?
They say it's a waste of tax payer's money as each by-election cost approximately RM20 million.
Yes we had so many misuses of the public funds that goes unanswered. Some cases wouldn't even be allowed for checks and balances as it was solely under the Official Secrets Act.
For an example, the PLUS highway contracts.
How much money do the government need to repay these companies each time they deny the raise of toll prices, over these years?
And they say it is a waste of money to by-election, the most foundamental practise, the must for democracy, or makkal sakti.
It has been more than 50 years since our independence and sadly, there weren't much progress in our leaders' minds, as they began to be even more unruly, and the "One Malaysia" once again join the batch of hollow slogans like its predecessors.... whatever happenned to Islam Hadhari?
I wear because, I like it, not because of some dude from BERSIH asked me to.
And if I am ever caught by the police just by wearing A BLACK T-SHIRT, hell, tough shit then.
You do not, will not, and shall not win the Perak people's hearts with cheap tricks such as hijacking the entire Dewan Negeri.
I mean, why is BN afraid of by-elections?
They say it's a waste of tax payer's money as each by-election cost approximately RM20 million.
Yes we had so many misuses of the public funds that goes unanswered. Some cases wouldn't even be allowed for checks and balances as it was solely under the Official Secrets Act.
For an example, the PLUS highway contracts.
How much money do the government need to repay these companies each time they deny the raise of toll prices, over these years?
And they say it is a waste of money to by-election, the most foundamental practise, the must for democracy, or makkal sakti.
It has been more than 50 years since our independence and sadly, there weren't much progress in our leaders' minds, as they began to be even more unruly, and the "One Malaysia" once again join the batch of hollow slogans like its predecessors.... whatever happenned to Islam Hadhari?
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
I'm finally single again~
Yes, after a year of dragging, we broke up again....
I really don't know how to say, it wasn't as painful as the first time, maybe that means I also do not love her anymore?
Do I not love her?
Those happy, sad, and emotional events were imprinted inside my mind forever.
How we met each other, how we used to dream about our future, her coking, we bought groceries together.... we made love to each other... it all seemed yesterday.... the memories were still fresh.
So what she was 25 years my senior, who gives the shit?
She just can't get over that barrier, and it's good that we split, rather than have to fight over our age gap.
She doesn't love me anymore.... so all those reconcilements made last year.... wasn't that strong anyway...
it's like a lightbulb burns out, you tried to patch back the burnt filaments, it glows far brighter than it old self, but snaps after a short while...
And our relationship glows dimmer and dimmer..... until it dies out.
I don't understand, how can ex-couples become friends? How can you mix libido with friendship..... it's awkward, and painful for the men, and it's super selfish.
I don't know whether I should hate her, or just cling on to my passion and continue to wait..... is it worth the wait?
No it's not, but it is so hard to put down... man everything in this universe can be explained scientifically, except religion and love relationships.
Totally no logic at all.
I don't think I can love another woman like I loved my ex.... do I still have the strength to love another person? I am tired, very very tired.
Every night I would just cling onto my pillow and blanket and tried to sleep. It was hard, so I have no choice but to read books, surf the net until fatigue took over my body.
Everyday I would just work, work my ass off to tranquilize my senses. Only work that I can find my life useful. Yeah it was only an internship at a newspaper office, but it's better than goofing off around.
I feel like a living corpse.
My senses are numb. I am forgetting how to love a person. I am getting cruel... I am alone.
Dragging wasn't an answer, I know. Everybody knows. But that's not the answer I wanted.... somehow I am waiting for the answer to change, but maybe that's meaningless by now.
After 5 years, I am back to the 1st stage, I am going to be alone again.
Just let the nature take its place....
I really don't know how to say, it wasn't as painful as the first time, maybe that means I also do not love her anymore?
Do I not love her?
Those happy, sad, and emotional events were imprinted inside my mind forever.
How we met each other, how we used to dream about our future, her coking, we bought groceries together.... we made love to each other... it all seemed yesterday.... the memories were still fresh.
So what she was 25 years my senior, who gives the shit?
She just can't get over that barrier, and it's good that we split, rather than have to fight over our age gap.
She doesn't love me anymore.... so all those reconcilements made last year.... wasn't that strong anyway...
it's like a lightbulb burns out, you tried to patch back the burnt filaments, it glows far brighter than it old self, but snaps after a short while...
And our relationship glows dimmer and dimmer..... until it dies out.
I don't understand, how can ex-couples become friends? How can you mix libido with friendship..... it's awkward, and painful for the men, and it's super selfish.
I don't know whether I should hate her, or just cling on to my passion and continue to wait..... is it worth the wait?
No it's not, but it is so hard to put down... man everything in this universe can be explained scientifically, except religion and love relationships.
Totally no logic at all.
I don't think I can love another woman like I loved my ex.... do I still have the strength to love another person? I am tired, very very tired.
Every night I would just cling onto my pillow and blanket and tried to sleep. It was hard, so I have no choice but to read books, surf the net until fatigue took over my body.
Everyday I would just work, work my ass off to tranquilize my senses. Only work that I can find my life useful. Yeah it was only an internship at a newspaper office, but it's better than goofing off around.
I feel like a living corpse.
My senses are numb. I am forgetting how to love a person. I am getting cruel... I am alone.
Dragging wasn't an answer, I know. Everybody knows. But that's not the answer I wanted.... somehow I am waiting for the answer to change, but maybe that's meaningless by now.
After 5 years, I am back to the 1st stage, I am going to be alone again.
Just let the nature take its place....
Sunday, April 26, 2009
Infamous quotes
Some of them just blasted through my head, some of them taken from my friends... enjoy.
Unless God give you more than one dick, stay faithful with one woman.
If you can repay all your debts to a loanshark, you don't have to borrow from them in the first place.
An asshole is a person who doesn't even fight for himself.
Look thrice before you leap.
Rules are for breaking.
The sole purpose for humans is to, well, reproduce.
We live to eat to live.
Unless God give you more than one dick, stay faithful with one woman.
If you can repay all your debts to a loanshark, you don't have to borrow from them in the first place.
An asshole is a person who doesn't even fight for himself.
Look thrice before you leap.
Rules are for breaking.
The sole purpose for humans is to, well, reproduce.
We live to eat to live.
Monday, April 13, 2009
I'm selling lipstick~
I'm selling lipstick, each at only RM20!
The lipstick's brands are MAC, Lancome, Calvin Klein and Clinique!
The lip gloss is MAC one..... each also at RM20! Only 4 left!
I also sell lip ice, the brand is Pond's, and they are only RM8 each!!!!
Will post the pic soon~
The lipstick's brands are MAC, Lancome, Calvin Klein and Clinique!
The lip gloss is MAC one..... each also at RM20! Only 4 left!
I also sell lip ice, the brand is Pond's, and they are only RM8 each!!!!
Will post the pic soon~
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Earth Hour is making me laughing my ass off
This is stupid. You do not save much electricity by turning off lights for just one hour.
Same as that infamous I'm not a Plastic bag, it's just another big ass Public relations event.
"Oh look at me! I care about the environment! I turn off 'non-essential lights' for one motherfucking hour! I'm saint! Hey I sacrificed one stupid hour for this motherfucking earth, so you gotta buy more crap from me than you usually used to!"
Let me tell you the ultimate way of saving earth and cutting down pollution.
STOP HAVING KIDS, LEGALIZE ABORTION AND FREQUENT DEATH SENTENCES.
That's right you heard me. The higher the world population, the more we gonna consume natural resources and more people are getting less. So next time when you see some big disasters like earthquake, tornadoes or freak floods killing massive people on the TV. You should be thankful because it ain't you.
Well if it's you in that disaster anyway..... well, remember that you're doing a part to save the Earth.
Otherwise, stop whining and just wait for doomsday to come.
Same as that infamous I'm not a Plastic bag, it's just another big ass Public relations event.
"Oh look at me! I care about the environment! I turn off 'non-essential lights' for one motherfucking hour! I'm saint! Hey I sacrificed one stupid hour for this motherfucking earth, so you gotta buy more crap from me than you usually used to!"
Let me tell you the ultimate way of saving earth and cutting down pollution.
STOP HAVING KIDS, LEGALIZE ABORTION AND FREQUENT DEATH SENTENCES.
That's right you heard me. The higher the world population, the more we gonna consume natural resources and more people are getting less. So next time when you see some big disasters like earthquake, tornadoes or freak floods killing massive people on the TV. You should be thankful because it ain't you.
Well if it's you in that disaster anyway..... well, remember that you're doing a part to save the Earth.
Otherwise, stop whining and just wait for doomsday to come.
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
People come and go
Yesterday I went back to see my friend, Sally who was working in KLCC. She kinda delighted to see me because of the foot traffic tanked for several days. She usually can hit like RM2000+ per day and now it's considered a bliss if she can hit RM1500.
She also told me the sad news: She will be leaving KL to be with her mother in Muar at the end of March... Sad huh, to see such a fine lady friend leaving you. Well can't blame her mum lah... imagine haven't seen your beloved daughter for 4 years, and every time she comes home, she barely stays for more than a week.
Ever since Sally came here, she has been the major attraction. Sales actually rose, because part of reason is that she has a very positive working attitude and being a sweet person.
The male store staffs around the KLCC are smitten with her. I got like a guy working at the Sony Conceptual store leering and observing her (eerie huh?) and throwing me envy stares for being able to chat and work with her 8 hours per day. I have customers repeatedly coming back to our stores just to take a look at her...
So you see, I can foresee that we will be hit even worse in April when this lovely lady is gone.
The reason of she is going away isn't totally because of her mother, because of the poor welfare provided by the government.
When sales go bad, her salary got cut but there wasn't any increase during the good times.
I wonder how long can the company survive just by recruiting some part timers.
The company soon will have to be run by the boss herself if she does not know how to cherish precious talents, for it is the most important factor of a company's survival regardless of any situation.
I enjoyed listening to her love story, about how her boyfriend constantly mess up their rented house, how she was getting courted by some unknown secret admirers, her friends that turned into hopefuls.... man, she was spoilt for choice but what really inspiring was that even though she felt happy that all the attention she get, she still sticks with her boyfriend.
Seriously, if she hasn't got a boyfriend, and I wasn't emotionally attached, I would really go after her.
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Registered facebook~
I just registered facebook..... So Just wanted to let you guys know.
http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=612703291&ref=name
Friday, February 20, 2009
I am just addicted to Manga
I don't know why I recently just went on a spending spree on manga..... and they are not pirated copies.... they're really imported from Taiwan..... one volume can be as expensive as RM14~RM20 X_x
I buy them because I can't find them in pirated version :P . But nonetheless the paper quality is superb, and the translation is state of the art.
I recently allowed myself to succumb at the magical drawings of Kaori Yuki. I just happenned to buy her ever-famous masterpiece "Angel Sanctuary".....
Kaori Yuki was the only female mangaka besides CLAMP that ever caught my attention. Her drawing was so beautiful that it is classic.
But I can never understand how can she draw her characters so...... ambiguous in terms of gender...... I sometimes had a hard time differentiating her manga's characters... maybe that isn't the main point at all.... maybe that's the way her manga should be.... neutral..... a mixture of sexual and asexual, perfect form of aesthetics.
I buy them because I can't find them in pirated version :P . But nonetheless the paper quality is superb, and the translation is state of the art.
I recently allowed myself to succumb at the magical drawings of Kaori Yuki. I just happenned to buy her ever-famous masterpiece "Angel Sanctuary".....
Kaori Yuki was the only female mangaka besides CLAMP that ever caught my attention. Her drawing was so beautiful that it is classic.
But I can never understand how can she draw her characters so...... ambiguous in terms of gender...... I sometimes had a hard time differentiating her manga's characters... maybe that isn't the main point at all.... maybe that's the way her manga should be.... neutral..... a mixture of sexual and asexual, perfect form of aesthetics.
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Thursday, February 12, 2009
David Archuleta - A Little Too Not Over You
It never crossed my mind at all.
It's what I tell myself.
What we had has come and gone.
You're better off with someone else.
It's for the best, I know it is.
But I see you.
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside,
And I turn around.
You're with him now.
I just can't figure it out.
Tell me why you're so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
I'm just a little too not over you.
Not over you....
Memories, supposed to fade.
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go.
Didn't think it'd be this hard.
Should be strong, movin' on.
But I see you.
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside.
And I turn around,
You're with him now.
I just can't figure it out.
Tell me why you're so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
I'm just a little too not over you.
Maybe I regret everything I said,
No way to take it all back, yeah...
Now I'm on my own..
How I let you go, I'll never understand.
I'll never understand, yeah, oohh..
Oohhh, oohhh, oohhhh..
Oohhh, ooohhhh, oohhh.
Tell me why you're so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
I'm just a little too not over you.
Tell me why you're so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
And I really don't know what to do.
I'm just a little too not over you.
Not over you, oohhh..
Saturday, January 31, 2009
Chinese New Year is boring
The only thing that I like about Chinese New Year (CNY) was that you get to get red packets. The rest was all routine junks.
Just like Christmas, it has turned into a commercialized, boring holiday with nearly all the traditions and its meanings forgotten.
Yes, it's all lip-service and frontal displays.
For example, those who haven't married get red packets, but what about those in sensitive ages like me who happen to be 25 years old dude?
"huh? (smles and hands you a red packet) So big already still red packets ar? when you wanna get married huh?"
Man, my dignity doesn't just worth RM2, you know.
And then there's these weirdos who happen to give away red packets to virtually ANY people that he bump into.
Well, the thingies inside the red packets POTENTIALLY packs a big punch; a lottery ticket, but from my past years of experience, hell of a slim chance you'll strike big.
How fake is that? I mean, either you do not give, or you just give a buck. I don't care though.... the main reason of the red packet is the token that counts, not the amount..... OK I admit that I love money.... who doesn't? But I do think it's time to stop and think what is the real meaning of Lunar New Year to us.
Then there are the ever nagging questions of the elder relatives.
If you're not married? "huh, haven't married ar? When you wanna get married??? Wanna get red packets until you're old ar?"
Married already? When give birth to a child?
Got children already? Lemme see.... lemme see..... huh? a girl ar? Ai yo.... when to have a boy?
Got a boy already? when to have a second one?
Jesus Christ.
Just like Christmas, it has turned into a commercialized, boring holiday with nearly all the traditions and its meanings forgotten.
Yes, it's all lip-service and frontal displays.
For example, those who haven't married get red packets, but what about those in sensitive ages like me who happen to be 25 years old dude?
"huh? (smles and hands you a red packet) So big already still red packets ar? when you wanna get married huh?"
Man, my dignity doesn't just worth RM2, you know.
And then there's these weirdos who happen to give away red packets to virtually ANY people that he bump into.
Well, the thingies inside the red packets POTENTIALLY packs a big punch; a lottery ticket, but from my past years of experience, hell of a slim chance you'll strike big.
How fake is that? I mean, either you do not give, or you just give a buck. I don't care though.... the main reason of the red packet is the token that counts, not the amount..... OK I admit that I love money.... who doesn't? But I do think it's time to stop and think what is the real meaning of Lunar New Year to us.
Then there are the ever nagging questions of the elder relatives.
If you're not married? "huh, haven't married ar? When you wanna get married??? Wanna get red packets until you're old ar?"
Married already? When give birth to a child?
Got children already? Lemme see.... lemme see..... huh? a girl ar? Ai yo.... when to have a boy?
Got a boy already? when to have a second one?
Jesus Christ.
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Had a terrific fun night with my co-workers.
1. It's my company's annual dinner and we went to this Japanese buffet restaurant named Jogoya in Starhill Gallery and had a feast. I had two oysters, tuna sashimis, dim sums, teppanyaki prawns, beef and mutton, red wine and cocktail. While my boss foot the bill.
2. Round two, we decided to stretch the fun and went to this karaoke lounge to sing all the way to 4am. Returned at home thanks to a dedicated co-worker who were willing to send me back home in his speedy modified sedan via 20km route. That was some crazy-ass driving.
I'm stoned.
2. Round two, we decided to stretch the fun and went to this karaoke lounge to sing all the way to 4am. Returned at home thanks to a dedicated co-worker who were willing to send me back home in his speedy modified sedan via 20km route. That was some crazy-ass driving.
I'm stoned.
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Why the fuck should I donate to terrorists?
People has been asking me to donate $$$ for Palestinians. I refused.
Why?
Because part of the money donated by us, will be channelled to HAMAS, the extremist wing which will use it not to buy food, clothes or anything else by materials for making bombs and rockets to fire upon Israel, further provoking the Israelis and then ultimately repulse and then making the Palestinians suffer.
To achieve peace, Palestinians must realize that they have no choice but to acknowledge the fact that HAMAS is the sole culprit in causing all these civillian casualities. It is them who refuse to renew and honor the ceasefire agreements and continue to fire rockets, 8000 a year, into Israel.
By donating money, you are indirectly supporting Islamic terrorism.
And What I am seeing now, is that our malaysian government is slowly taking their stance to be pro-terrorism..... asking the US to sanction Malaysia. What a bunch of pig headed assholes.
Hishamuddin is one of them. This motherfucking fool has asked all 5 million Malaysian students and teachers to lay down their work and go for a demonstration rally just to voice out support towards HAMAS, and boycott US goods.
Stupid. If we boycott US brands, we are the ones who suffer. If US boycotts our goods, US people save money, we will be starving to death.
Why?
Because part of the money donated by us, will be channelled to HAMAS, the extremist wing which will use it not to buy food, clothes or anything else by materials for making bombs and rockets to fire upon Israel, further provoking the Israelis and then ultimately repulse and then making the Palestinians suffer.
To achieve peace, Palestinians must realize that they have no choice but to acknowledge the fact that HAMAS is the sole culprit in causing all these civillian casualities. It is them who refuse to renew and honor the ceasefire agreements and continue to fire rockets, 8000 a year, into Israel.
By donating money, you are indirectly supporting Islamic terrorism.
And What I am seeing now, is that our malaysian government is slowly taking their stance to be pro-terrorism..... asking the US to sanction Malaysia. What a bunch of pig headed assholes.
Hishamuddin is one of them. This motherfucking fool has asked all 5 million Malaysian students and teachers to lay down their work and go for a demonstration rally just to voice out support towards HAMAS, and boycott US goods.
Stupid. If we boycott US brands, we are the ones who suffer. If US boycotts our goods, US people save money, we will be starving to death.
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